because of you. i've nothing left here.

Sayin' "Let Just Be Friends",
it's merely my excuse to take my time to ferget about you.
you dont know the hurt you've caused.
you dont know the pain u've inflicted.
WE NEVER Shood Have Blurred That Boundary.
because of you ; there's nothing left here for me.
i feel like i've left em down.
but i cant do this anymore.
i feel like ive been pushed to the edge ;
with no one to turn to,
no where to go.
even though god sent me guardian angels,
my angels have a life.
i cant be imposing on them.
i cannot wait to hate you,
but i cant carry you around.
u've been a burden to me ;
fer the past year.
i cannot continue carrying this empty shell.
if you knew, i waited and waited and waited for you on 3 occasions.
but you never turned up.
not even a call.
i bet u were busy with her that's why.
i cant cry,
cux my tears have dried.
i cant cry,
cux my headstrong self refuses to give in to my emotions.
i cant cry,
cux this grace i've fallen from,
i shood be thankful my angels cushioned my fall.
i cant cry
cux i've alr let them down.
i wont let myself down.
i cant cry cux i've cried enough for you.
i'll never understand why u do all that u've done.
i'll never fergive you fer all that you've done to me.
i'll never ferget how i've gotta climb outta this hell hole myself,
without a closure.
i begged for a closure,
but you were too stingy about it.
all i needed was that tiny bit of faith back.
all you've ever done was consider her feelings.
you dont wanna hurt her.
what about mine?
by your actions you've hurt her too.
ur really really really selfish.
to the extent that you could hurt me like this.
i'll never understand, forgive nor forget.
from the day i met you till today.
i knew i can never ever count on you to do me right.
-never.
and you proved me right.
why'd you have to do me so wrong?
i cannot bring myself to forgive you.
maybe not yet.
ask me again in 2012.

i could and would have given all you ever wanted.
i could and would have made you prosper in every aspects you dreamed of.
i would and could have been the girl.
you'r makin' a very very bad mistake.
dont you ever contemplate your emotions?
think of the long run?
instead of being in the moment?
you dont ever consider others' feelings.
all that u ever care was yours and only yours.
i never knew u'd be this selfish.
disappointments after disappointments,
you still cant do me right.

you've re-opened old scars for me ;
when i chose to trust you.
you've re-invented phobias for me,
when i decided to believe in you.
you've re-invented heartaches for me,
when i decided to give you my heart.
you've re-invented nightmares fer me;
when you decided to change my mentality,
the stigmas i hung around the necks of men.
and because of you and your actions today,
you'll live with the consequences it comes with.
you had a home here in me;
you chose to lie.
you made your bed,
you lay in it.
because of you ;
i've nothing left here for me to stay.


imy-ily-& i always will.