Sabrina Yves'xydora

idk why; but i'm still hurting from the lie you concocted.
of all things; you had to lie your ass of;
even of how you felt about me.
i have failed to the extent that you had to lie about everything.
everything was a bloody lie this past year.
idk why does it still hurt?
maybe cux i still care.
but i;m not sorry; fer being sinciere.
i'm not sorry fer putting my heart into everything i do.
i'm not sorry fer being real.
if loving you means i had to give up my real self.
i'd rather you love me; knowing who i really am.
i feel like bawling; so maybe after that it wou;dnt hurt so much.
but my tears have seem to dry up.
maybe you couldnt get past me fer being me.
maybe.
maybe it was all planned out;
fer you to toy me.
maybe.