I'd Party With You ;
But No-body Understands Why I Don't Wanna Do None Of These Anymore.
no-body is honestly interested to know what happens in your life.
so yea ; i realised that being cooped in my solid solitude was much easier.
No-one know that behind these laughters i share with you ;
is a crying heart ; ripped apart.
i'm seriously tired ;
tired of all these pretentious faces.
it makes me feel disgusted.
i realised nobody cares how you hurt ;
they're not even interested in the first place.
everyday ; i get outta bed and choose a new mask;
to conceal all the hurt that was piling.
everyday i leave the house leaving myself at home.
everyday i suck back those tears and laugh with them.
everyday i remind myself to seal those lips ;
and be as superficial as the rest ; afterall that's how they wanted me be.
i know i have things to lose ; if i were to go on like this ;
but i have nothing to gain from losing it.
every single time a setback occurs ; a lil' creativity get stubbed out;
however i apologize fer not being as bubbly and carefree as you are ;
i can't do it without realising my bleeding heart.
if life had other options ;
i'd coose and re-choose.
if i could control the who, what, where, when , hows ,
i was born ; i would do it all over again.
if i could choose the people i love ;
that allowed them to hurt me ;
i'll choose all over again.
if i could change the sequences in life ;
i'd live it again.
if i had one wish left.
i'd choose death.
its easier.
if i wasnt brina ;
