Your Constant Reminders Why

You just had to didnt you?
The Least You Could Have Done Was Be A Better Liar.
I've honestly exhausted every possible idea;
how i should still love you; enough,
to convince you that i'm here to stay.
you just had to.
i cant believe that i almost missed all the signs.
sometimes curiosity really gets you into fucking deep shit.
have i been that terrible?
am i that difficult to love?
that you couldnt be straight with me?
that you couldnt look me in the eye and tell me the truth?
all i ever did was compromise did nothing but wait.
in hopes that my paitence would pay off.
i would never in my wildest dreams again think that i would be this foolish.
the answers were right in front of me!
god had it landed in my laps.
you never loved me;
so what's the game ur playing here?
i dont get it.
it fucks with my brains.
it's too complex; the thought of it makes me wanna cry.
its your perplexing behaviour;
i should have seen this coming.
serves me right.
this is your stage right here.
go ahead and gloat.
i'm a big girl.
i know what i ought to be doing.
no more.
enough.
you shood stop your charade now.
pronto.
You were the one who convince me that you werent like them.
you were the one who could wait to cut yourself away from the stigma(s) i hung around the reputation of men.
You were the one who creeped into my life with a hello;
and those eyes! urrrggghhh!
you just had to ruin it.