Sabrina Yves'xydora

everynight, before i drift into lala land,
my mind never fails to fall upon you.
imy.
so much, that every piling thing makes me wanna cry.
i need you.
but i know well enough where i stand,
and where you'll be.
you never be there fer me when i need you.
when i need you the most,
i feel like a lost child when i cant find you.
confused, insecure , scared.
i want so much fer you to be here fer me,
like i would fer you.
you've pushed me away since day one.
you not letting me in.
everyday, i hold on to that tiny glimpse of hope.
hoping you'll turn around, and tell me how much i mean to you.
everyday i see constant reminders of how disposable i am to you.
you need someone to blame,
and i'm punished fer it, just because i love you.
you know how unfair the world is to you,
has it ever crossed your mind, if you're being fair to me?
i'm not a blooddy object you stash back in a corner.
i love you.
but i'm sensible enough to know.
don't blame my age fer your feelings towards me.
i'm not some bimbo who knows nothing.
you don't make an effort,
and i keep trying.
i keep tryna tear down this wall you'v built.
i keep tryna sooth this war you started.
words cannot carry the weight of how much i miss you.
since you've made up your mind since day one,
since i cannot change your mind after so long,
i'll leave you alone.
just bear in mind that i' love you,
and i always will.
i tried.